Student Loans >:-[

Picture me about 5 years ago sitting with my "financial aid" advisor and them telling me... "no worries... you'll be making enough money to payback your loans and its a great intrest rate BLAH BLAH BLAH..... Fast foward to today when I'm trying to figure out how much dept harold and I have so that we can try to make Obama's plan work for us... (http://makinghomeaffordable.gov/)

I almost threw up all over my computer when I opened up our account summary for our Student Loans.... Not only do we have about $90,000 of dept from school BUT.... get this... are you ready.... WE OWE MORE THAN WHEN WE STARTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excuse my language but honestly... WHAT THE F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been three years since we graduated and we pay almost $1000 a month to this stupid lender.... lets ball park this and say that we've paid almost $24,000 and OWE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????? Oh my god... i swear i have chest pain right now!!!

Ugh... no one said growing up was any fun what so ever! I couldn't even keep doing what I was doiong... I had to come here and vent cuz harold is at work busting his ass FOR NOTHING!!! This is all so scary... I try to be strong.. i swear i do but shit man this is hard! How can I even call the company to get answers when as soon as I open my mouth all I want to do is curse and cry... i'm still such a baby =/

Playing house is ass crazy when you step out of your little dream world and see what's in front of you. THANK GOD we have our health and it seems like this second job is going to work out. Thank god for harold and our family friends and that I'm not alone... I need to get myself together and call these people... i know i'm only gonna get more bad news.... maybe I'll wait till harold is here so they can give it to us dirty in the ASS at the same time!

ok.. enough.....

ayyyyy.... sorry this wasn't as bubbly as my other post... i was about to erase everything but this is me and life isn't always easy.... but life is wonderful... things will work out in the end and the best any of us can do is take things a day at a time.

LIFE IS WONDERFUL
xoxo

ROCKED my interview!!!!

I just got back from my interview with Baptist Home Health and I TOTALLY ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!! It was a pannel interview with about 6 different managers and they go around in a circle asking questions. At first I was crapping in my little space boots but after two or three questions I was all over them like butta on toast!!!! hahhahaa

One of the stupid questions they asked was what I do if I see "dishonesty" - you know what... i see dishonesty every freaking day and guess what... i keep my mouth closed and mind my own business!!!! I wonder what they expect me to say when they ask that question??? I told them that when I see someone who doesn't turn little old pts every so often I comfront them and tell them either they have to do it or they need to tell me so that I can do it... hope that didn't sound like too much bull shit!!

Another question was how I have handled a very emotional pt or family.... I told them about that guy who passed away and his wife that told me thank you for all I do... i sorta choked up saying the story and saw 2 or 3 watery eyes in the room..... LOVE IT! I told them how I was just there for the family and simply said I was sorry and gave the family a hug... I don't remember what the next question was but I was able to make them smile and laugh which felt awesome!

The interview was an hour and let me tell you that an hour after I left the place THEY CALLED ME BACK!!!!!! They offered me the job over the phone and now its just paperwork crap that needs to be done!!! WOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooooo excited when she called!!!! Harold and I totally need some extra cash and if this job works out its going to be awesome for me when we have a baby!!!!! I'm soooooo HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's to thanking god and the angels that watch over me and my family.....
xoxoox

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I know its the day after but... I worked yesterday and had green martini's when I got home ;-) Although St. Patrick's day is mostly thought of with lots of green and alcohol I spent most of the day remembering Uncle Al... It's his birthday and I can't help but to think of what a great bash he must be having. I wish I could have known him a bit better... like what did he do for his birthdays?? Did he even like the color green?? Did he drink beer or anything else special on his birthday?? I know that they're silly questions but they are the random things that run through my head!

I know that him and abuelo are around.... watching over us with the other angels... I would love to hear a laugh or see a smile though... I think that is what I remember most... Alvin had a very unique personality.. he was always in a good mood and telling some sort of joke. You couldn't help but to smile when he's around! My mom is like that =) I don't have a funny joke to tell but CHEERS TO YOU UNCLE AL!!! Your always in our hearts <3

This weekend we had a great time in the keys. Saturday we headed over with Barbie and Angel (harold's brother). We put the jet ski's in the water and spent the whole weekend riding and lounging in the sun. Barbie and Angel are super nice and fun to hang out with.. hopefully it won't be another year till we get to see them again! lol..

Saturday night we sat up in the balcony talking crap till about 1 in the morning... the weather was beautiful and we even got to watch the moon rise! Its funny to see how Harold and Angel are so much alike... its crazy that there is someone else in the world so much like Harold... I don't think he knows how awesome it is to have a brother. I have no idea how to explain to someone what it's like to have Sandy... if you take a step back and watch Sandy and I you can really see how much we are alike... apperently even our voices are the same! Its just awesome having that special someone there who is closer than anyone else no matter how far you are apart... its freaking awesome man! ;-)

Sunday we all headed to the tiki bar/sandbar.. it was a beautiful day and the water was Awesome!!!! We all got more sun than we needed to but we look great! =) And that was the weekend... I hope to have many more like that over the summer!!

xoxox

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In love...

A few days ago we were off and decided to build a little island in the back yard around our tree. We were inspired by how beautiful my mom and dad had landscaped their yard and started working on our own little project. Everything came out super cute and we had a great time putting everything together. That night we grilled on the bbq and made a fire outside. It was such a romantic night... the moon was beautiful and it was chilly outside. We smoked cigars and drank wine and listened to country music.... i know it sounds super gay but it was a special night!! we talked about our lives and how time has passed and how happy we were.

I felt so in love with him! The last few days I have just felt it in the air. I just feel so in love =) I know that this love is always there but alot of the times I just don't pay attention to it. The last week has just been so happy =)

On saturday, mom and dad stopped by the house after work to see our little island... while saying goodbye outside they saw a cat that was super sweet... they managed to convince me that the cat was hungry and that I should give it milk.... little did I know that the cat would not go away once I fed it!! Harold told me before I poured the milk that if I fed the cat it was going to be mine... he was right! lol... her name is now Kitty... she stays in the front of my house and rubs up against my legs and licks my toes. I can't pick her up to kiss her because I start sneezing instantly... i'm super allergic to cats! Roxie doesn't like her very much and Harold refuses to warm up to the cat for now. I have no idea how to have a pet cat so now that I'm done writing i'm gonna do some research! lol...

xoox

Hawaiian Breakfast

I was surfing the web and came across this picture and couldn't believe I almost forgot about the most delicious breakfast EVER!!! We were in Hawaii on our honeymoon and the restaurant under our hotel we were staying in Wakiki had this awesome little restaurant.


This was the view from our seats and it was picture perfect!! Breakfast was AWESOME!!! For dessert they bring you those donut things... they're called malasadas and taste like HEAVEN!!!!!!! They are freshly fried and have sugar all over them... mmmmmm.... my mouth waters just thinking about it!!! lol

That was a happy memory =)

We're actually planning our "honeymoon" for our first year anniversary! This year has FLOWN by... I mean fly like..... FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So we're going on a cruise to Cozumel =D I'm very excited and I know its gonna be AWESOME because everything we do together is AWESOME!! lol.... There's nothing like vacations! Que RICO! I can't wait!! We're splurging on a balcony room because we're cool like that! hahha... there's room still availble on the ship if you want to join us!!!! =D

We decided that the tickets are going to be our one year "paper" gift... I'm getting him another little something special but i'll let you know later incase someone special is reading ;-)

xoxo

My Roxie

roxie enjoying a coconut in paradise...

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