So Tired...

So I didn't post last nite because I was in such aa crappy mood I didn't want to sound so whiny while writing! lol.. I had a yucky day at work again and i was just down about anything that had to do with nursing. To top things off yesterday was Nurses Day... two years since harold and i graduated... two years! They actaully put a post on the miranda site and when i read it i started to cry... i just dont feel like the kind of nurse you never forget. I barely know my pts and i have no time to talk to any of them. This whole 6 pt thing at work sucks. There is so much paperwork and so much crap to do its impossible to keep up with it all and keep you brain straight! I was actaully in the middle of attempting to spend a little time with one of my pts and he's telling me how his wife died of a heart attack and how it was their anniversary.. he was crying and all.... then bang.. my damn phone rings for god knows what... i had to leave the room. i felt so bad. and its just one thing after another! other people dont do their jobs so you have to do double the work beacuse you actaully give a shit! ay i dont know... i think it might be time to move on to something else. i used to LOVE going to work. i had no problem going to work or doing anything and now im just so damn grumpy! i'm trying to keep my spirits up but i have to figure something out because these headachese i keep coming home with just suck! yesterday i actaully managed to go to the gym right after work so i felt good once i actually got home. I actaully got to go eat dinner with harold because since it was a year that the hospital was open they had free paeya and arroz con pollo... it was nice to spend some time with him.. i hate coming home and being all alone.. expecially on days like yesterday when you just need a hug. One day.. i hope!

Today.. today i did chart checks and took rox to the vet.. she's so scared to be there.. it breaks my heart! When i got home i cooked roldi dinner.. i made the chicken in red sauce.. as it was cooking we were watching tv and the pot was making that pressure cooker sound... he was laying on me and told me that the sound was soothing to him... it was actally soothing to me too! it reminds me of being at abuela and abuelo's house... i miss them so much =/

dinner was tasty and he took some to work... i got to take a bubble bath which was nice.... now i just need to get to sleep!

bye!